Wednesday Weigh-in (for reals this time!)

So here I am with an updated weigh in, as if though I never stopped updating this blog!  So I decided 2013 was to be the year of Me.  I was gonna get my shit in order, and I was going to be productive and happy.  I started the year at 110kgs, and I am currently at 106.7.  I made the resolution of cutting out soft drink, and have since joined the 12 week body transformation program.

I use it as a guideline of what to eat (no way in hell im gonna enjoy the food she wants me to eat), but basically I am living off small portions of steak, chicken, salads, fruit, wholegrain bread/wraps/mountain bread and other non-processed/non-sugary foods.  I drink 3 - 4 litres of water a day now instead of soft drink (although its getting to a point where water is just too hard to swallow, so I have the very rare mouthful of soft drink at work (maybe one a week)).

The body transformation program offers a GREAT gym plan.  I work out 6 days a week for about an hour and a half.  Im 9 days in and I can already feel myself being stronger and more energised.  Previously, I have gone to the gym and just had no idea what I was meant to be doing with myself.  Having a set plan that I can tick off as I do it is great for me, as I really do thrive in a situation with proper structure.

I have really lost a lot of weight.  After 2 days I had gone down 1kg, and after another 7 days I have gone up 0.2kgs.  Its very, very disheartening.  But the program insists its all about mindset, and I vowed at the beginning of the program "I am making a commitment to myself to focus on transforming my body and my habits into a better, healthier lifestyle. I acknowledge that I will make mistakes, but I will not let those mistakes derail me with guilt and anger. Every stumble need not be a setback, and I will do my utmost best to be the best I can be by the end of the 12 week program."

So, while I dont feel I have made any mistakes (indeed, I was feeling pretty indestructable before today), I have to acknowledge this stumble is not a setback, and turn it into motivation.  I didnt do my work out today.  I got on the row machine for my 5 minute warm-up (which is ALWAYS hell, and without fail about 2 minutes into it I always feel "there is no way I am finishing this work-out today", only to finish it and smash all my previous records.  Love that feeling) and stopped after 43 seconds.  I just felt like shit, my sails were without wind.  But this is the trap I always fall into, and I recognise it.  I will go to the gym tonight after work and I will kick its ass.  And next Wednesday (how awesome is it that this program also has a Wednesday Weigh-in?) I will show that scale who is boss!

Current Weight: 106.7
Goal weight for end of Feb: 100kg  (not looking likely at this point).

Wednesday Weigh-In: Week 1

Oh boy.  This is sort of embarassing.

You see... I... Well, the thing is...

I havent actually been to the gym yet.  So this means, I cannot give you a current weight.  I cant really talk about much of anything.  I would list the foods I have eaten, but being today was therapy day, I kinda had a "food hug" blowout.  So, in an effort to note hate myself forever by documenting the bad things I have eaten today, Im going to pretend it never happened.

So what the hell am I going to write about today?  Well, I can set a goal for the next week.  I need to get the gym and shake of the lazies.  I know once I start going, I will enjoy it again.  Its just currently it is difficult, because I am car-less.  And its well within walking distance, but anyone who lives in Adelaide would know about the rather crazy weather we are having atm (Its a minor cyclone outside as I type, IMO).

That isn't to say I have been without exercise.  My job as a Pizza Delivery "Expert" has fortunately not been interrupted by my lack of fast transportation, as the company owns two cars and they have allowed me the use of one for the next few weeks until I can pay to get a new radiator.  However, they are located about 2 - 3 kms away (uphill... both ways.  No seriously, there is a bloody steep hill to go up there and back).  So I get a decent walk in every night I work.  I am not being completely lazy (although not through any active effort to be otherwise... >.>).

Ok, so... challenges and goals.  This week (Wednesday 25 - Wednesday 1) will have simple goals.  I want to go to the gym 3 times this week, and I want to ensure I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner every day.  I often skip both breakfast and lunch, simply because I cant be bothered.  Breakfast makes me nausious, lunch usually seems like a hassle that I cant afford.  Of course, to offset this, I snack.  This is bad.  So to start off with a proper pattern and a healthy lifestyle, simply eating 3 main meals a day and going to the gym 3 times a week is my goal.  Baby steps, Luke.  Baby steps.

Low risk challenge, low risk reward.  Success on 5 out of 7 days and 100% gym attendance will entitle me to spend $10 on myself in any non-food related way.  Money is really tight, and I am often wishing I could do something a little more exciting with it for myself, but am always too afraid that I wont be able to afford petrol, or groceries or rent.  However, at the end of the week I usually do have 10 - 20 left over, so I go and buy McDonalds or KFC or something which is really just a waste of money and no good for my goal of getting fitter and healthier.  So I may put it aside and by myself a book with future rewards, or the new Walking Dead video game I have noticed recently (I love zombies) that seems really cheap at $25 but I just cant afford that luxury atm.

Photo of my big belly will be updated later in the week, when I can find my missing webcam.

Wednesday Weigh-in

You know what I love?  Aside from posing questions that can't possibly be answered in my chosen form of communication.  That's right.  What a freakishly lucky guess.  Alliteration.  And really, who doesn't love a good case of Alliteration.  We were brought up with it thanks to Mickey Mouse and friends, the pickled pepper picker Peter Piper and less obscure ones such as Lucky Luke.

Since I am fat, and I dont want to be anymore, there really wasn't a choice in the matter on what would be put in at Wednesday.  A few years ago, the first time I got serious about losing weight, I started a blog called "Fat Man in Tighty Whities".  That blog is really the spiritual predecessor to this one, only it was a lot more focused.  I did daily updates on food eaten and exercise done.  At the beginning of each week, I would pose myself a challenge, at the end of the week I would evaluate myself.  If I did well, Id get a reward.  I also took pictures of myself in my underwear to embarass me into action.

All in all, it worked, sort of (which really is the story of my life, the "sort of" bit.  Seems I can say that about everything).  I lost a lot of weight, but the problem came down to timing.  You see, two days after I started the blog, my wife left me.  This put me in an emotional state that was GREAT for exercising, but not so good for remaining sane.  If you were to track down that blog you would see a very sad record of the worst 4 - 6 weeks of my life.  It also repeated itself a lot.

So basically, Wednesdays will be Tighty Whities v.2.  Each Wednesday I will weigh in.  I will outline my goals for the week, any challenges I may wish to inflict upon myself (or hey, perhaps there are challenges you can think of for me?) and a photo of me in all my sexy glory.  Eventually.  In the meantime, you'll have to make do of a photo of me in all my flabulous glory.  I just made that word up.  Im pretty clever like that.